So many expectations for today, yet I mildly crashed, staying in bed most of the day crying. Crying out the pain of missing Randy and the accompanying loneliness. Days are up and down, and on this down day, I comforted myself with a bed, warm blankets, lots of juice, and crying… oh, and online shopping!
Expectations help to keep me going, but sometimes I just need to take a break from distractions, feel this pain, and rest. Sadness has followed me since dear Randy’s Memorial Service. The pain was reawakened and I couldn’t escape it, though at the last minute I wanted to escape with all my being. Today it all caught up with me and there was no running, flying, swimming, biking, carting, or walking that could pull me away.
Tomorrow is back to plans and engaging the world again. Thank you Donna for giving me a day to crash and rest. Thank you God for the healing I know that is coming…
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The Survivor 
Though you feel your faith is weak, your expression of your faith is strong and deep, and it reminds me to pray.
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thank you… I was reminded this week how our prayers are collected in bowls in heaven, so lovely…
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Your faith in God’s healing is evident dear Donna-through the ups and downs.
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My faith feels weak to me, as I doubt so often, but underneath the doubt, there is enduring faith that God will provide healing and joy… for me and for you…
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