Home has alluded me since death. That haunted house no longer holds home for me. As I’m in the process of clearing it out, giving away so much of what once held my heart, joy has actually found me. To let that past be in the past, to no longer let it weigh me down in the mire of life lost; freedom is finding me…
And with freedom, home.
This new house has been my dwelling for 2.5 years now, yet never has felt fully of home. Homeless, not unhoused, but homeless… has gnawed at my being. Existing, sleeping, waking, eating, walking… but not the comfort of I’m home. A sojourner in a strange land.
Yet this last week has been different.. the breath of life is finding me; freedom from the grip of death, freedom from the hauntings of death. Death is being replaced by life. Outwardly no one would see anything different in my days, yet inwardly, life is replacing death. Miraculous… wondrous… I’m truly in awe that this transformation can even happen, as death is such a consuming and devouring killer of life. Each day that I awake with this transformation, I am amazed that life is still with me. So if this change is permanent or even just temporary, I’ll bask in the warmth of life.
I’m home… As I sit here in the beauty of the forest, the warmth of the sunshine, the songs of the birds, filled with the love and life of God… This is OUR home, you and I, our home. Our home where we open to each other… our communion… our rest…
The beams of our house are cedars, our rafters, junipers Song of Solomon 1:17
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The Survivor 
Donna, I am so happy that you are beginning to find joy in your “new” home.
Your thoughts this morning reminded me of the scripture that says this world is not our home, oh but what a pleasant place to be when we find that bit of joy in our earthly dwelling!
I thought you might like to read these lyrics from the song:
Finally Home
1 When engulfed by the terror
Of tempestuous sea
Unknown waves before you roll
At the end of doubt and peril is eternity
Though fear and conflict seize your soul
Chorus:
But just think of stepping on shore
And finding it heaven
Of touching a hand and finding it God’s
Of breathing new air and finding it celestial
Of waking up in glory and finding it home
2 When surrounded by the blackness
Of the darkest night
O how lonely death can be
At the end of this long tunnel
Is a shining light
For death is swallowed up in victory
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What an amazing song… thank you for sharing this with me! And thanks for your support🩷
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