PreNote: The following I write not for sympathy, to self flagellate, or fishing for praise. The last few days I have struggled with self-criticism, self-doubt, insecurity, in a way I haven’t seen since young. This writing is my personal, very vulnerable process to face this attacker.
You, I haven’t seen in many, many years. You rip me apart, bit by bit, inside and out. Worthless, coward, empty, useless, nothing, ugly, old, grotesque, failure, hopeless, unwanted, unloved… these are the words of your torture. Hide, abandon, mute, disappear, are the paths you lead.
Randy did love me so, that you didn’t dare approach. Confidence from love has held me strong. So am I so fragile, that with the crumbling of Randy’s support, I crumble as well?
NO…..
I am loveable. I am strong. I hold faith. I hold God. God holds me. I have beauty. I have opinions. I am inquisitive. I am interesting. I am useful. I am helpful. I am wanted.
So you, my attacker, may I be your friend? May we meet? Will you allow me to see your pain? May we embrace and love and learn to live together in peace?
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The Survivor 
How wise to invite your attacker to be your friend, Donna, to look for his pain behind the false accusations. With that invitation alone you are showing him your strength and courage, the absurdity of trying to lead you down paths labeled hide, abandon, mute, and disappear. I’m thinking this post will do much to bring peace between you!
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Thank you for this encouragement ☺️
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You are unique. God made you and there will never be another one like you. Cherish who you are.
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As you said, “I am loveable. I am strong. I hold faith. I hold God. God holds me. I have beauty. I have opinions. I am inquisitive. I am interesting. I am useful. I am helpful. I am wanted.”
Keep telling yourself these things, Donna. Believe them. Every word is true! 💗
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I think you’re beautiful, and amazing, and brave.
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